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BPD
They like to define BPD by chaos.
They rarely speak about strength.
High sensitivity didn’t destroy us.
Dec 27, 20251 min read
THE THINGS THEY NEVER TELL YOU ABOUT BPD
They talk about instability.
They never talk about depth.
Being highly sensitive didn’t ruin us.
It trained us.
Dec 27, 20251 min read
Surviving the Holidays Is Enough
Surviving the Holidays Is Enough
The holidays are hard and I’m tired of pretending they aren’t.
Everyone talks about joy and magic
Dec 26, 20251 min read
This is hopedieslast.
This is hopedieslast.
Not a brand. Not a platform. Not a recovery plan.
This is where I put the truth so it does not rot inside me.
Dec 24, 20252 min read
Somewhere Between Messages
Somewhere Between Messages
I didn’t plan for this.
That feels important to say first because if I had planned it I could explain it.
Dec 24, 20253 min read
PART I — Self-Harm
PART I — Self-Harm
I used to think self-harm had a very specific look.
Razor blades. Blood. A dramatic breaking point.
Dec 20, 20258 min read
Welcome to hopedieslast
Welcome to hopedieslast
This is hopedieslast.
Not a brand. Not a platform. Not a recovery plan.
This is where I put the truth.
Dec 19, 20252 min read
You’ve made it. You’re here. hopedieslast.ca
This is where hope goes to get a good talking-to, a slap on the back, & maybe a cocktail.
This isn’t a motivational blog.
Dec 19, 20251 min read
When the Holidays Hurt More Than They Heal
The holidays are supposed to feel warm. Lights. Traditions. Togetherness.
But for many of us, they don’t. They feel heavy. They feel loud.
Dec 19, 20253 min read
When Love Ends Too Soon
Losing a pet is a specific kind of pain. It is quiet but constant. It lives in routines. In empty bowls. In the sound that never comes back
Dec 18, 20252 min read
Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
CPTSD isn’t a phase. It’s a wound that keeps breathing.
A past that keeps reaching.
A nervous system stuck between fight & collapse.
Dec 10, 20252 min read
Self Harm: Part 3 What Self-Harm Actually Feels Like
PART III — What Self-Harm Actually Feels Like By hope dies lastTonight the urge came back like it always does:quiet at first, then loud enough to shake the walls of my chest. People talk about “urges” like they’re thoughts.They’re not thoughts.They’re sensations — physical, heavy, magnetic. It starts in the ribs.A pressure.A tightening.A feeling like […]
Dec 7, 20252 min read
Self-Harm Part one
Self-harm isn’t always a razor blade, a bruise, or a dramatic movie scene where someone screams into a mirror.
Sometimes it’s quieter.
Smaller.
Socially acceptable.
Pretty, even.
Dec 6, 20251 min read
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